That I Would Be Good

I had a rummage through the CD cupboard today for some background baking music and came across this from my student days...

Alanis Morissette: Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie

 

It is one of those CDs I had completely forgotten about but once it started to play it all came back to me.

I had always loved one song above the rest.

Today it made me cry.

The words mean more fifteen years on...

 

that I would be good even if I did nothing

that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down

that I would be good if I got and stayed sick

that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt

that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth

that I would be great if I was no longer queen

that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself

that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed

that I would be loved even when I was fuming

that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity

that I would be good

whether with or without you



Then I went rummaging on YouTube to find a live performance of the track.

It gave me goosebumps.

As I listened I scrolled through the comments and came across this...

Feb 11, 2013

my wife played this to me when she was receiving treatment for cancer .... i loved it , but she never beat it , she died at 34 from pancreatic cancer which had spread everywhere ... this friday she would have been 40 years old .... RIP Joanne ,our children are well and fine and are very loved xxx

It makes me so thankful for what I have got.

Watch and enjoy.

 

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